My Life My Way

Haria Raya 2011

2011-08-30T03:55:00.002+08:00

It's almost 4am and I am still wide awake.

Here's wishing SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all Muslims out there !

Happy celebrating~!

Maaf Zahir Batin.

We will move on in LIFE (:

2011-06-28T23:19:00.007+08:00

Hello World!

For those in IT related-fields, that would usually be the 2 words used in any kind of practical. -_-" Anyho, my days of tertiary education is over. :'(

OFFICIALLY GRADUATED !

..And now currently working! ;D -I know, you're asking now where and doing what?!

Well, I would not disclose the name of the company I'm working in (being cautious here..), but I would say the location is at Bishan. Yes, it's far but well.. Circle line and direct busses are available. However, my papa's been sending me off to work for these 2 weeks. I'm very thankful for that! (:

As for what I'm doing, I am pursuing what I have studied for the past 3 years. Yes, in other words, an IT job. There's a possibility of me taking up accounting as well. Anything for an experience in accounting! :D

The environment's warm and everything's fine. I hope most of you girls (if not guys, if you're not enlisted yet) have started securing jobs for yourselves too. (:
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LIFE

Only one word to describe the working life. Repetitive or rather, (on) Replay! Really, I've expected this but definitely not to this extent. D: Though it may just be that I'm not entirely used to it yet. Bummer.

More onto the personal side, it seems.. Well, I would only say it this way. I refuse to be involved in any petty complications nor partake in it. I've got my own matured mind to think and a heart of gold to empathize with.

I have planned some of my major goals and I intend to achieve them. All these ..implications don't and won't matter.

Alright, I'm going off to bed.

Friends, old and new.. Know that I do still remember all of you and will never forget our once shared memories together. (:

xoxo

Hello Hello~

2011-03-29T04:28:00.004+08:00

It's been a while.. School has ended, currently waiting for the official graduation ceremony. Career path-wise; endless possibilities. Only, I have to make a right decision which is clearly undecided still. :/ *sighs* On the other hand, been keeping myself busy with planning an upcoming event for my batch of graduating students. As of now, the outcome of the event rests on the interests of my peers. My personal wish: I'd really hope that it does take place because this would be the only time in my entire life I be able to celebrate my graduation from an institution. Prom Night, you're guessing? Well, no but something entirely similar, a Dinner & Dance function. (: Thinking back in retrospect, the past 3 years have been like a flash through my life. Sometimes looking at the current EXCOs and Planners in school, I'd really do miss those days when it was I who were in their shoes. ..No matter how tough it was. I'd have to say, thanks to that we've all emerged a better person in one way or another. Undoubtedly, the most enriching and best experience of all schools. :} Mmm.. I'm not entirely sure who (still) reads this blog though I will still continue writing from time to time. ..My fingers itch to type something, anything. Heh. Oh yes, in the previous post, I mentioned writing a story and running to keep me occupied. As anyone would guess, nope, I have yet to start running much less exercise (..but i got Bronze NAPFA yo!) and of course, writing a story is never easy. :( AH! Seeing that boyf is calling me now, I shall end my post here. Cheers! p/s: Anybody watched Gnomeo & Juliet ? The song 'Hello Hello' is stuck in my mind~ Hehee.

SHEESHHHHH

2011-03-10T08:13:00.002+08:00

3 Months. Sheesh. Well, here I am again. :D

While many of my peers are just like me right now, searching for jobs or applying for the local university, I feel restless and agitated somehow.

For the first time in my life, I feel so darnnnnn bored! There's a quote I happen to recall some years back which kinda hit me. 'An idle mind is a devil's ..something.' Playground? Playpen? Paradise? Mehhh.. Okay, I googled it. (don't pretend! Google is your best online friend!) It's uhh.. Playpen or rather, workshop. >.>

Right.

Okay, I've been looking through all my photos from the time I was 17 to now. Flashing memories; I teared a little in thinking how some of these people I will never meet or talk to again. We all had so much fun, joy and pain together through certain events. The one most noticeable thing is my constant change in hair length. One moment it's extremely short, the next it's long, then medium hair length. -_-"

..Now I feel like cutting it short again. Having long hair is not entirely a good thing y'know. You lose hair, LOTS of it actually. Plus it's very hot out here in Singapore. The heat irks me and it affects my mood. Boyfriend can atest to that, unfortunately. Sorry love! :(

Man, I'm now 20. No longer a teen. I keep thinking I'm still 18 and I have no idea why. Maybe 'cos I don't look like I'm 20? ._.

Mao. (it's the sound cats make, not meow but.. you get my point.) Alrighty-oh. I've been rather chatty and more hmm, open in making my thoughts.. well, open.

SO! Before I end this post, I've come to the conclusion of writing a story to keep my mind sane and~ to start running! Yep, believe it or not, I haven't run in 3~4 years now. ..BUT! I passed my NAPFA! Weeeeeeeee~! I got Bronze only, but hey, still a pass! :D

Okay uh. Waiting for Graduation is a very long wait... *sighs*

Mmm... Have a nice day whoever you are reading this! (:

`Till next time~

Pocketful of sunshine

2010-12-12T00:05:00.002+08:00

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

Recently been reading GMH, which makes me smile broadly and there are times where I do feel like tearing up. Touching sories never fail to brighten up my day, or anyone's day I believe. {:

FYPJ has come to an end. Start of IPP now.

Thinking over things a lot more often now. Not entirely sure what path to take, sigh. :/

Well.. For now, I shall enjoy the silent night in my room.

Good night people. (:

It's good to be back!

2010-11-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK FROM SUZHOU, CHINA PEOPLE! It's been an awesome, major fun, well-spent and coldddddd 25 days overseas! :DD

Daily updates of my trip are all on FaceBook, jsyk. {:

Now that I'm back, I have to focus on FYP and Attachment next. Just a little less than another half year to go before I officially end tertiary education and graduate! Kinda impatient to 'start off' my own life.

I have a vision in my life, just not so settled with the aims. Hmm.. .

Well, better start by getting myself back to pink in health. Been feeling sore all over and weak-ish. Sorry peeps who have been waiting to catch up with me in school or elsewhere. >.<

I've got gifts for a few people, not because I don't care enough about the rest of y'all but there's really limited variations for gifts in China. Believe it or not, I can't find anything suitable for guys. There ain't no "I HEART CHINA" T-shirts nor are there any "SHANGHAI" / "SUZHOU" keychains. Magnets are unbelievably pricey too. *roll eyes* Forgive me, shall make it up for something else in return 'kay.

TOODLES!

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I'M BACK!

2010-10-13T21:12:00.003+08:00

First off, I KNOW I KNOW I've been missing in some updates here on my blog. D: Fret not, I shall update now. =]

Well, after 25 August, exams came and gone. My results weren't too bad. I got err.. Lotsa B+, B's and a few A's. One C+ but it wasn't counted. Hurrah! Turns out my GPA has increased, (as it normally should) and finally hit my target of 3.0 above! :DD Super happy y'know. *peace sign*

Juniors and visitors, never give up. Grades CAN increase, just depends on how you work at it. :}

Also~

Belated SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my muslim friends! :D
-I'm sorry if I didn't reply any of the raya smses. Pretty hectic day. :S

September 13 FYPJ Starts. *Efaah's 19th Birthday! Sorry babe, I shall get you a double present next year or if i see something reallllllllllyyyyyyyyy nice in China! :}

My project's pretty interesting, and it shouldn't be much of a problem if only it is to be coded in VB.net. I'm not good at picking up new programming languages in a hitch. Time is a pressing issue and well, yeah.. :S

Things are quite okay now though. I'm picking up and learning more things than ever at what I'm assigned to do. Knowledge is power, to some extent. ;]

Next up, I'm flying off to China, Suzhou next Wednesday, 20 Oct! =] The flight's in the early morning at 8am, anybody wanna come and see me off, sms me 'kay. Though I highly doubt so, y'all probably having classes already. :p

Will be staying there for 25 days, so I shall be back in Singapore on 13 November, Saturday night. 9+ or 10pm around there.. (:

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, I know my hair is in a mess & I'm gonna do something about it okehhh. I'm going to rebond my hair again and trim it neater before I fly off. Hopefully. ;D

Alright, off I go now. Lil' bro's bugging for his pc. D:

Pssst.. Before I do log off, I would just like to say, CONGRATULATIONS TANG SING YUEN! Goodbye to single life and welcome to the happy duo club. Wish you both a happy and everlasting relationship. Cherish these times =3

Happy Anniversary ♥

2010-08-25T03:58:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing ever that bad that we won't be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

Baby you're the one I've waited for
Because you gave me what I need and more
Girl its clear that we are meant to be
Together,
We should be together ....
Eternally
Ohhh...

ILY ♥

MIA

2010-08-22T04:29:00.002+08:00

Exams are coming so soon, and I have yet to open any of my course notes. -_-"

Anyway~ Fasting month is great! Break fast at Grandma's just now. Had nasi lemak, my infamous aunt's lagsane, J CO Donuts. Yum yum~! Oh, there was siput sedut (err.. snails, which you suck out of the shells. Idk what is this called in english, sorry!) , otah-otah and sambal udang too. A really joyous and festive dinner. :D

Hmm.. On the other hand, been busy with Club affairs. AGM coming up soon too, sigh.. It just feels like yesterday when I (we) planned out very own FMO in 2009. I missed the times we shared and all those bittersweet memories. Honestly, it's really been one of the best times in my poly life. I'll miss this once I graduate and enter the workforce. I just wish the young ones realise this too. ):

I'm hoping so much for the next generation/batch of EXCOs. Oh well, that's another story. Heh heh. (:

Anyho, I MUST WATCH LIAR GAME & STEP UP 3 THE MOVIE(S) !! Please boyf, bestie, cuzzie, ASK ME OUT! (mao) D:

I know I MIA this past 2 weeks, but that's because I really want to enjoy and relax at home before the FYPJ and IPP after exams. It's a continuous 6-months thing with NO BREAK in-between. D:

Hmmph.

..Okay, this entry is rather lengthy so I shall end here. I wonder if anybody still reads this blog of mine o.o My tagboard seems rather dead. :/

Okie doo, I'm off now. To all Muslims, have a great meal for sahur alright!

Toodles.

High Low No?

2010-08-13T05:13:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone, how y'all doing?

Final project's over. YOG Break now & fasting month. Exams next. It's a high and low all over again.

..Though I'm looking forward to 25th August. *hint hint* <3

..and also staying over in Suzhou, China for a month in October. (:

Missing a lot of people right now; Fir Sayang, Efaah, Iqah, just a few to mention. Meeting up soon is not enough, make it sooner people~! :D

In the meantime, been spending the past few days at home and believe it or not, mapling. LOL. Just to unwind and release the pent-up stress. Well, leave me an offline msg if you guys maple too. Heh.

Alright, before I go off I would just like to say to all Muslims out there to enjoy this blessful month of Ramadhan! (:

BYE..!

Long Shot

2010-07-21T21:06:00.004+08:00

I realize that there is all this doubting
Things we're both scared about
That we'll never see them coming
Throw caution to the wind
And we'll see which way it's blowing
And to this pulling on
We'll never see it coming
Until it's much to close to stop

My heart beat beats me senselessly
Why's everything got to be so intense with me
I'm trying to handle all this unpredictability
In all probability

It's a long shot, but I say why not
If I say forget it, I know that I'll regret it
It's a long shot just to beat these odds
The chance is we won't make it
But I know if I don't take it, there's no chance
'Cause you're the best I got
So take a long shot

Oh I waited for fact to come of fiction
And you fit my description
I never saw you coming
But we'll make it

Everyone has their own wants, needs and misses.

Mao~

2010-07-19T23:25:00.002+08:00

Busy.

Project, Tests, Presentations.

Anyway, boyf's turning 19 soon. Hohoo, the final year of being a teenager! <3 I wonder what's in store for him, heh.

Even though everyone's busy and what not, I'm still looking forward to some good times. ^^

Cheers!

One's Worth.

2010-07-11T23:55:00.004+08:00

How do you know if something is precious to you?

How much is it's worth?
How much sentimental value it brings you?
How much effort you spent on getting/receiving it?

Or simply because it exists, is limited/rare and is yours now, that it is precious.

Do you have the answer?

Which is it?

Rain Heavily.

2010-07-02T16:39:00.003+08:00

Heh. I guess my body can't take it anymore.

Weak.
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Sorry I can't be there but WELCOME BACK TO SINGAPORE Germaine and Firdaus! (:

Sorry too Wee Chiat, you had to do a lot because either I'm sickly or I just can't get out of bed on time. =(

tire.

World Cup

2010-06-23T23:19:00.003+08:00

World Cup.

Almost every night the TV in the living room is switched on to the World Cup matches' channel, and nobody is watching. Lil' Bro and Papa would be in a room, busy playing Cabal Online. Only coming out when the ahpeks and uncles at the coffee shop below shouts "GOAL!", to see the replay on the TV screen.

..Meh. I guess the World Cup Fever isn't as hyped as last time. Comparably.

Anyho~

Haven't completed any of my assignments yet, and it's already Wednesday. SIGH! The workload is nagging me at the back of my mind. =/

PLUS!

I haven't done of any the things I've said I wanted to do. D:
Well, only celebrating Father's Day by baking Papa a fondant cake. (:

As for the rest, idk when I will ever have the time.. .
Makeover of my room is still in the process. Cleared out so many books. =x

This term break doesn't feel like a break in all honesty. :s

Mm.. Going to Singapore Arts Museum tomorrow for NE Trip.

..and I'm looking forward to Friday. ♥

Running out of time.

sick of being sick

2010-06-16T18:52:00.003+08:00

Urgh, just when I thought I'm fully cured. My fever and flu came back with the rain pouring down earlier. ):

My nose is similar to that of a leaking tap. D:

..I hate eating pills too. Sigh.

Oh woe is me.

In Touch

2010-06-16T01:50:00.003+08:00

Term Break Holidays. 2 weeks.

Somehow, just thinking about the amount of schoolwork I have just puts off the holiday mood. Sigh.. I guess at most I can only fully enjoy this week and work my arse off the next.

List of things to do :

♥ Fishing, please .
♥ Sleepover with cousins .
♥ Celebrate Father's Day ? ._."
♥ Makeover my room, definitely .

I realised, time and time again, whenever I'm busy, everything arounds me just fades into nothingness. It's not really a good thing nor a bad thing either. Only, it's not really 'things' that I just lose touch with but rather the living people around me, which makes it much, much worse. Sigh..

It's just something I can't control. :(

..and the only thing I truly suck at. Keeping in touch. =/

Meh.

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..'Kay, Father's Day is coming and I don't know what to get for papa. I have an idea in mind but, not confirmed yet though. Oh wells.

Off to school tmrw; Club Affairs.

Cheerios! ;)

Sick.

2010-06-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

Sick with Fever, Flu and a Throat Infection. Dannggg..! :(

Thank You Fir sayang for accompanying me to the doctor's and all. I'd really appreciate it. <3

Well, term break is coming soon, and there's quite a lot of schoolwork to be done. Sighs.. :/

Hopefully there's enough time for fun and play. (:

June already?

2010-06-04T00:43:00.001+08:00

It's been one hectic week. D:

Well, off to sleep nowwwww. I shall blog next time. Bye! (:

Babble, Stressed Up.

2010-05-25T03:46:00.004+08:00

It's going 4am soon and I'm not done with studying. Been feeling pretty ..hollow. Literally. ..Both my mind and body, that is.

INDINF Test of 10% at 9am later. 4 Chapters may seem little, but it's already half of the thick course notes. Sigh..

Anyway, next week: MADEV Practical Test, ECOMM Report due, Project Proposal due and.. ISECT Test.

Tough luck. So much for wanting to go fishing on Vesak Day.. Hmm..

As for this week, I still have Comm Skills 3's resume and cover letter to do. Also, that ISECT mini quiz on CMS. Brrr..!

Looking forward to June Break; Though it won't be much of a break it seems. :(

Rush rush, stress, fatigue, lack of sleep. Nothing new there.

..I need some fresh air.

dizzy

2010-05-24T14:12:00.000+08:00

swollen, blisters, splitting headaches, fatigue, migraine, gastric, light headedness, nauseous..

what a way to start the week..

tired and sickly. it's like i've lost my mind.

Anyho, upcoming tests, assignments and project tasks these next few weeks. idk how we're gonna complete all these. sigh..

Well, have a great start of the week people. (:

Parachute Love

2010-05-16T03:50:00.006+08:00

Celebrated Shidah's birthday today!

Swensens at Ion, then cycling at East Coast, having seafood dinner at Lagoon and finally, a bit of shopping at Parkway Parade. :}

Happy Birthday Shidah! My Publication Head, I wish you happiness for today and the many days after, and your wishes to come true in time to come. I hoped you enjoyed today! (:
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♥ Baby, I wish we were in the music video of Parachute. ♥

I guess it's a love hate thing.. Boys have their own views of things, and so do girls. This is how we're set apart. No matter the differences, at the end of the day, I've come to realize everything's so silly and that I just miss you, being next to me.

Awww.. . Hehs.

Speaking of love, my best friend in this whole wide world has a boyf now! YAY! I'm so happy for her! :DD I can't express my happiness for her in words. I wish you and your boyf all the happiness in the world and enjoy all of your times together. I hope your r'ship is everlasting. ;)

Alright. Moving on~

..The fridgerator in my house has been sent for repair today. :(

It's a good thing I don't really rely on it too much, for instance, ice cold or chilled drinks. The only downside is, not much food variations. Only tin canned food, instant noodles or takeaway food. Though, I don't really mind that..

Sudden thought of how hard it is for those families who don't even have a fridge in their homes. :'( -Fortunate..? I'm just grateful for what I'm blessed with.

Mama always say, "Just be happy/contented with what you have for your needs. Never ask for more, because that's greed. Just be thankful and grateful for what you have. If you want something (more than what you need), then work hard for it."

(:

Happy B'day Mama(:

2010-05-13T20:11:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Mama, even though I'm not the greatest daughter I can be. (':

Happy Mother's Day(:

2010-05-09T18:47:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's celebration was so-so. It was fun though listening to the adults talk, hehee. ;D

Well, these past few days I find there's nothing much for me to do.. Sigh, very saddening. Anyho, Lil' Bro finally moved out of my room, YAY! -Don't be mistaken, sometimes a girl just gotta have her own room to herself y'know. ;p

Oh well, I feel like getting dinner outside and topping up my bus concession pass. Mehh.. .

'Kay, I'm off.

can't see, but can you feel..?

..into pieces

2010-05-08T13:03:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow is Mother's Day, and I'm trying my hardest to just keep a straight face, much less smile. A supposedly happy day, but my mind is numbed. My body unwilling to move. Everything's blank..

Going to celebrate Mother's Day later at Grandmother's.

obliterated.

Blink of an eye;

2010-05-03T02:21:00.002+08:00

Blink of an eye;

Happy 21st Birthday Guo Wei! :}
-Hope you had a great day at Marina Barrage earlier! Flying kites is awesome! (:
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I can't believe it's Week 3 already. Danggg, that's fast. Anyho~

GOOD NEWS PEOPLE!
I'm going to Suzhou during Period 3. Meaning~ I'll be going to China, from 25th Oct to 19th Nov. Woots! 1 Month, and better yet, my fellow EXCOs are going too. Yippeee Ya Yay! ;D

Hmm.. On a random note, I find myself listening to Hey, Soul Sister repeatedly. Mehh, sucha catchy tune.

Aye, I'm off. ;)

time for a change;

Fresh Start

2010-04-28T11:42:00.002+08:00

First Week of school was alright. (:

Just have trouble getting to class on the dot. ._."
..and dealing with the cold. >.<
....and also the hunger pangs between classes. ):

Well, anyho~ I haven't seen Suwanno for a long time until yesterday. I hope I'll see him more often and maybe we can talk talk. It's been ages since I last talked to him! D:

Thennnnnnnnnnnnn... ..

I don't know what else to type. =_="

Going off for lunch now, so I guess I'll write in more next time then.

p/s: IRON MAN 2 !! IP MAN 2 !! =D

Lose Myself

2010-04-24T18:22:00.005+08:00

I feel so winded up, like a Jack-in-the box, waiting to spring out. Yet, so lost like the wind, blowing from everywhere and anywhere. I want to be let lose, like a lion out of it's cage.

Conflicts within myself. I don't know what all these means, it's puzzling. D:

p/s: I love my boyfriend, Firraihan Shah. (:

break away from reality;

School(:

2010-04-17T06:44:00.003+08:00

Oddly enough, I'm actually looking forward to school. ._."
Though I'll miss my long-hours-sleep, sobsob.

..Does that make me weird? o_O
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Anyho~

I want to watch movies, go prawning/fishing and and.. anything fun! Gene, Iqah, Sing Yuen, Lil' Bro, Efaah, Boyf, Kit(-to), Jem aka Egg, WHERE ARE YOU PEOPLE ?! D:

*looks at the time* off to sleep, NOW. BYE!

Listen .

2010-04-14T19:57:00.002+08:00

Hey, slow it down
What do you want from me
What do you want from me
Yeah, Im afraid
What do you want from me
What do you from me

There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didnt give a damn
But now here we are
So what do you want from me
What do you want from me

Just dont give up
Im workin it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do you want from me
What do you want from me

Yeah, its plain to see
that baby youre beautiful
And its nothing wrong with you
Its me Im a freak
but thanks for lovin me
Cause youre doing it perfectly

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldnt even try but I think
you could save my life

Just dont give up
Im workin it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do you want from me
What do you want from me

Just dont give up on me
I wont let you down
No, I wont let you down

So
Just dont give up
Im workin it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, what do you want from me

Just dont give up
Im workin it out
Please dont give in
I wont let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
(whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me
whataya want from me

every line..

FMO's OVERRR!

2010-04-10T23:21:00.002+08:00

FMO is finally over..!

There are so many things to say, but.. I'm sure everyone and anyone who is part of the event's committee will simply understand. (:

Anyway, I'm left with a week of hols, before school re-opens. D:

...Outings, anyone? (:

relief.

Selfless

2010-04-04T19:19:00.001+08:00

“Real love is when you become selfless and you are more concerned about your mate's or children's egos than your own. You're now a giver instead of a taker."

-Sylvester Stallone

... .

R-A-N-DOM

2010-04-04T18:07:00.002+08:00

I've been reading manga during my free time. Hmm.. Also, I never thought doing puzzles could actually make me feel so sleepy. ._."

Meh.. Anyway, heading back to school tmrw. This is the last lap for FMO 2010/11 Planning. 7th to 9th April is the real thing already. Hopefully the trial runs will turn out fine.

p/s: I wanna watch Clash Of The Titans 3D please! D: Oh and Efaah baby, Shutter Island is out this week, ii think. =x

xoxo

The Worst;

2010-04-02T04:31:00.002+08:00

..I wonder how true these quotes are to a certain extent, but somehow I find myself hoping that.. I'll be able to say or fit these quotes perfectly into my life. Words like these, give me strength in ways, I never thought possible. Or for the most of them, I'd just find them really uplifting.

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” -Washington Irving

“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.”

“Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.” -Swedish Proverb

“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.”

“It is impossible to fall out of love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart. True love is eternal. If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn't love you were in. There are no 'exit' signs in love, there is only an 'on' ramp.”

“Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it.”

“When good people have a falling out, only one of them may be at fault at first; but if the strife continues long, usually both become guilty." -Thomas Fuller

empty;

D:

2010-03-31T01:09:00.002+08:00

It just feels nostalgic.

..and a bit tad sad.

PRAWNING!

2010-03-29T01:10:00.002+08:00

Went prawning for the first time everrrrrrrr on Sunday morning. I caught a prawn on my first try too! WOOTS! :D

Ahem, results are out. It seems I've improved the most this semester. Yay! :}

Okaaaaaaay, I shall go off to sleep now! Nitey nites!

xoxo

Sore !

2010-03-27T05:19:00.003+08:00

My sleeping hour(s) is absurd.

I feel really $!@%^* every time I can't get out of bed, because of my sickly, tired body. Today was the worst, I just couldn't move much. Everything hurts, fishhhhh. It's like as though I ran a marathon the day before.. Sigh.

I feel really lousy every time I'm not in school. It feels/seems as though I'm making up excuses for not coming, but urghh.. Just.. RAWR! D:

On to another personal matter;

I don't know what to say to comfort people when they are facing the lowest point of their lives or a setback, etc. I don't know what's best to say to 'em, and I just end up feeling just as sad. I fail to cheer them up or just make them see the positive/brighter outlook on life.

The least I can do is offer a listening ear.. .

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I'm accompanying lil' bro to some seminar later. Then off to Grandma's place to pray for my deceased aunt.. (':

the best you can do;

xoxo

2010-03-21T03:44:00.003+08:00

It's not easy for me to say things, good things, to a person who's facing a difficult time or a problem when I'm not in their shoes. The only thing I CAN DO is to simply understand and come up with the next best thing/solution/idea. Sigh.. It's become a normal occurence for me but.. I do feel helpless at times, because the things I can do to help them is so limited. :(

It's just a personal opinion of mine though..

Anyway, people I'm fine. I know my previous post with the lovey dovey (..and sad) images may depict or suggest otherwise. It's just that I'm trying to convey a message. (:

Well, updates about FMO Planning Stage. I heard there have been some changes here and there. I guess I'll only be updated fully through the presentation(s) on Monday. ;)

Due to my commitment with S.I.T. Club, I hardly have any time to meet up with girlf, cousins, friends and of course boyf too. I'm trying my best to balance my time for everything, but even time have it's own limitations. Sigh.. :(

Believe me, it's not easy for me. There are so many other things I or the many of us in the planning stage could do instead. I'm sure all will agree with me on this point. Hehee.

I'm sorry my dear family and boyf. All the things I'm doing now etc, it may seem silly, but I actually do have a passion for event planning. ..and it's the only time I can ever do this anyway. (':

..but Thank You from the bottom of my heart for at least, understanding me.

Love Y'all.

Love for you;

2010-03-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

Because I love you, more than you ever know.

Never give up;

2010-03-18T20:48:00.001+08:00

Individuals

2010-03-18T19:24:00.003+08:00

Changes..

FMO Planning Stage;
Planning ahead of time and keeping track of time are 2 different things. Hmm.. Idk, but I miss the times we spent planning together last year. :')

Missed today's planning, due to Mr Monthly's horrible cramps with a vengeance and slight temperature during the day. I guess I need a lot more sleep these next few days.. Brrr..

Anyway, I've heard that exam results are out next tuesday.
The new semester begins on 19th April.

..So soon. D:
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I pose a question to all you readers;

How do you practise the term or word, impartial ?

p/s: Thank You boyf for the fish burger. Hehehee. (:

..is inevitable.

Happy Birthday~

2010-03-15T01:22:00.002+08:00

FMO Planning Stage has officially begun.

Rush rush rush. Geez, now I'd know what it's really like to be in my senior's shoes/position last year. =/ -Not that I can't understand..

Though, this year things are looking up real bright.. So far. (:
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Birthday celebrations. One after another. Happy Birthday to all March Babies! <3

...and today is a special day because it's Gene's Birthday. I've seen that epic video link you sent SY, and just because it's your birthday today.. Hehehe, I shall let it pass. LOL !

Have a blast on your special day today, little brother. Hahahahaha. 'Cos you're the HERO on this day! (:

The weight on my shoulders;

Busy soon.

2010-03-08T21:20:00.003+08:00

Went swimming yesterday and watched the movie Alice in Wonderland in 3D. Hehee, awesomez. :}

Pre FMO-Camp earlier today and tmrw. Tired now.. =x

Boyf said, "Nice combination" when he saw me just now. Meh.. I know, I should get new shoes and get a proper pair of bottom sports wear. Hahaha. -No $$, mnyeh~ ._."

Anyway my dear friends, I'll be busy throughout this whole month of holidays with the upcoming FMO next month. I won't be free on the weekdays, only on the weekends. (:

Just text msg if there's anything yeah? Heh.

Vroooommm!

FMO

2010-03-06T14:58:00.001+08:00

I just found out today. OMG.... Is all I can say.

..It changes everything, now.

Come on, sleep!

2010-03-03T06:59:00.002+08:00

Finished studying with DMID. YAY!

-All 12 chapters memorized in record time of 2 hours.. ._." I hope I can remember all of the information well~

Now if only I can fall asleep and take a short nap..

..I wish.

Decision.

2010-03-03T03:20:00.003+08:00

I've decided.. .

{Edited}
That by ranting elsewhere and slowly becoming myself again, I'll save the need of troubling others.

..and through that, nothing will be damaged.

..and hoping that love will overcome anything.

Can't help but wait..

2010-02-27T00:00:00.004+08:00

Before I get started on studying (stressing) for SWENG Exam Paper this coming Monday, I went for a peaceful, relaxed outing with darling girlf, Efaah, just now. Thanks babe for bringing me to Keppel Bay. The wind was cooling, the never-ending sailing patrol ships/boats and just catching up on things with you. :}

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jsyk, imy.

pause and rewind.

New Haircut ♥

2010-02-26T05:16:00.008+08:00

JENG JENG JENG..!

Guess what?

I got a new haircut today..! ;D

It was oddly relaxing and soothing. The sound of the hairdryer blowing my hair dry, sounded like the ocean waves crashing upon the shore. Heh. ♥

Anyway, I'd rarely put up any pictures of me on this blog. So.. Here ya go, some pikchas taken by my beloved boyf's 5 megapixel handphone earlier today. ..Meh. Hahahahaha.

p/s: don't mind the silly facial expressions. mnyeh~!

♥

trace back to those smiles,

Sunk in yet ?

2010-02-22T06:10:00.005+08:00

..Even now, it still comes as a shock to me that my beloved strong-willed aunt has passed on. Idk if the tragedy has totally sunk in (my head), but it seems that i'm not the only one.

Papa simply said it's because when one is very close with family members, or friends etc. It may come as a shock when they're gone so suddenly and it may take years for the reality to sink in. :'(

Sigh.. Still, life goes on as usual and I'm coping much better through this ordeal with boyf's company and of course, my faith in Allah. (:

Now, if only I can concentrate on the first exam paper this Wednesday.... Brrrr~! Planning a studying schedule is not a problem, but the problem only comes in sticking to it. ._." Oh well..

Good luck to all for your upcoming papers~! ;D

..random musings; greek mythology is really intriguing.

Time .

2010-02-20T05:20:00.005+08:00

"I wish i could go back and undo

Start again, back with you

And you didn't hear what you heard

Wish i could go back and take back words"

I've come to realise, I'd rarely have much time for anything else.. The things I used to love doing, the lovely people whom I usually hung out with and maybe, just bonding with my family.

Sigh..

Anyway, exams first. ..and I can pretty much fit in a plan or two right after. Can't wait..! [=

If only I'd have all the time in the world :(

R.I.P Mummy..

2010-02-19T20:08:00.002+08:00

When you think of losing your loved ones, it brings tears to your eyes..
There's nothing much else to say;

Rest In Peace Beloved Aunt.

Your battle with lung cancer has caused you so much pain.. Allah loves you and that is why he ended your suffering.

All of us love you, and always will. We will never forget you Mummy, you're always remembered in our hearts, minds and souls.

The only regret that I have, is not seeing you for the last time.. :'( I'd pray that your soul is at peace.

Amin.

15th February 2010.

Sadness .

2010-02-16T07:22:00.000+08:00

Crash and Burn .

2010-02-10T15:38:00.006+08:00

Project Presentation's over and had dinner at Seoul Garden to celebrate! ;D

Well, now left with the Exam Papers and then to FMO Planning. Mmm... Aye, can't wait for the trip to KL with lovely cousins this Friday to Sunday. Hoho~ :}

Alright, I'm off to watch a movie or two at home.

Toodles!

xoxo.

Truth is..

2010-02-07T19:00:00.004+08:00

Sorry after sorry. No amount of apologies can remove this feeling of guilt I feel. :'(

..and idk how to proceed from here on.

indescribeable.

Bury my face with my hands

2010-02-06T05:12:00.003+08:00

Your love for me was always there

Maybe too much for me to care

Now that I know I messed it up

I'd give my all to take it back

'Cause you're all I have

When the world comes down on me

You're the one I love

And I'm begging you to see

You're all, you're all, you're all I have

You are, you are the one I love

You are, you are, you're all I have

..i wished you never knew my negative thoughts.

Sickly

2010-02-05T19:13:00.002+08:00

I stayed in bed until 5pm today. I'm not feeling well, sigh.. :(

I need a nice hot meal right now, be it a Long John Silver's meal or that fried kway teow with cockles. Yumm~

cravings.

Someone please give me a wake up call?

2010-02-04T22:44:00.003+08:00

It feels like ages since I last blogged.

First up, a BIG THANK YOU to Kishan, Quinton, Wee Chiat and Gene for the lovely birthday surprise at school! The cake was great and I was really, really caught by surprise 'kay!

Secondly, Thank You Sing Yuen and Gene (again) for the thoughtful birthday present. :}

Third, Thanks to everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday! There are so many of you, be it on FaceBook, SMSes via Mobile, or even MSN and my blog. Many Thanks!

Of course, the gift from boyf.. (How can I forget?) Thank You very much for the gift and surprises. You've really surprised me and won me over with all the preparations etc. I know you have spent so much effort for my birthday, and I can really see it. There aren't any proper words to describe what I felt when I first opened up the 'wrapped' gift. Thank You boyf, for everything.. <3

Well, Birthday aside. I have a problem getting up on time. No matter what time I set my alarm to, I just can't seem to get up. -_-" I'm such a horrible sleeper. Worse still, after getting up, my nose acts all funny with the flu etc~ Mehh..

Also, project is finally done. Though I could do so much more, I'd rather not crack my brain over harder-to-understand codings. I'd do try, but I just can't seem to get it right. -.-" Sigh, forget it then..? =/

Mmm... Final Project Presentation's on Monday, followed by exam papers on the 24th Feb, 1st & 3rd March. Not much of a holiday this time round, due to FMO Planning. Hmm, will only know for sure next week though during club meeting.

-Just being random-
...I realised my posts are never short. Except for the previous post, heh. About that, don't worry over me. Everyone have their own problems, and I'm just facing some of mine. :S

Alright, boyf is coming over in a while. 'Till next time!

..the sugar in my high.

Sighhh

2010-01-30T05:53:00.002+08:00

enough said .

Happy Birthday

2010-01-24T02:27:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to me! ..and Cousin Ardy. ..and Senior Zai Yong. ..and to all January babies! :D

If you're wondering what am I doing on my birthday, I've got a simple answer. Nothing much, really.

Just gonna have a nice hot b'fast with boyf (later on in the morning) and then maybe some shopping on my own and head back home. -I don't want to ask for anything, or need anything in particular.. There's not a need for presents or anything else. Just spending my day happily and stress-free would be great. =]

From next week onwards, I'll be busy working on project and then studying for exams. Followed by a short hols before FMO Planning Stage takes place. Hmm.. . Imma busy person.

OH YES! News regarding my application for Overseas FYPJ Attachment.. I got shortlisted for Period 4 Suzhou (China). Meaning 13 Dec to 7 Jan, 4 weeks/1 month to be exact. It would be Winter season at that time. How awesome is that?! ;D

Well, more details will come in when Year 3 Sem 2 starts, roughly around 28 June. Hoho~ ..I'm a little sad that I wouldn't be going with my fellow Excos (Period 3) though. :'( -On the bright side however, my classmate, Sarah, is going with me! (:

As for the celebration earlier on, it was alright. Ate a lot and received $$. Hehee. Now that I'm 19, I feel a tad bit old.. Can't believe I'm hitting the digit 2-zero just next year. ._."

A SHOUTOUT :-

"A BIG Thank You to all my dear girlf/bestf, relatives, family members, friends, seniors, freshmen/juniors and of course, boyf, for the heartwarming birthday wishes! (:"

..I Love y'all!

Aching Feet

2010-01-22T21:24:00.001+08:00

Here I am blogging in the MRT via my handphone. My feet is aching from walking around too much, sigh.

Anyway, a lot of events took place the past week. It's like a whirlwind.. Idk what should be said and what actions should be taken.. It's just stressful all of a sudden.

A lot of things are on my mind, I'm surprised I'm still sane. Sometimes, I wish I could keep everything to myself and not bother others with my little issues, but I'll end up suffering silently inside. I realised that when I do confide in others, it sometimes affects their feelings/mood and it just seems to me that my burden is now shared with them too. ..which I really don't think is a good thing. Hais. =/

Well anyway, will be spending the whole Saturday at Grandma's. Makan2 there, and celebrating another 3 cousins' birthdays too. Heh, January Babies rulez! ;D

Aite, I'm off. Takkaire eh people. (:

Dilemma .

Crap Sh!t

2010-01-17T23:05:00.003+08:00

Have you ever experienced waking up from sleep, and then realising you can't turn your head to the right because of this immense straineous pain? ..Well, if you have never experienced it before lemme tell you now. It downright S-U-C-K-S ! D: (Yes, that's what happened to me today)

With the ability of turning to the right like a systematic robot, I pretty much laughed at myself silly for such rotten luck. I lost count of the many times I said, "This is so stupiddd, I can't even tilt my head right. HAHAHAHA!" -.-"

Parents said it's a case of 'salah bantal'. Boyf said he experienced this a few times before. ..Me? This is the first time ever, no wonder I find this ache in the neck so silly. I mean, I can't tilt, turn, bend my head to the right AT ALL. How unlucky.. Meh.

Anyho~ Celebrated cousin Nur's 17th Birthday over at Cik Adan's place just now. Had a chit chat session with the girls. Went for a drive around the neighbourhood with Shidah being the driver. WooOooo~

An aunt commented that I've gained weight. Well, I ate like a pig at the celebration so... ;p Told boyf about that, and he said I should go start jogging. -_-" He suggested we should go jog together. Heh heh. ..Good luck with that.

Alright, gonna do my paperwork and stuff. CCA Points forms to fill up and submit, POA Project paperwork to be completed and then study for OS Test tmrw. ..I'm so screwed.

-At least now I can turn my head to the right, but tilting it is like #%#^@.

BYE!

pain pain, go away~

Sun-kissed !

2010-01-17T02:29:00.004+08:00

Sports Champ is finally OVER..! Well, only left with the Basketball final match though. Still.. Good job everyone! =D

Now that I've got some time to concentrate on my studies, the weeks ahead are packed with tests. Oh yes, exam timetable's out too. I will be having 3 papers this time round, on 24th Feb, 1st and 3rd March. WooooOooo~

Task At Hand: Hafta work on main project these few weeks.

Alright, good luck people with your projects and tests etc..! See yaaa!

i wish everyday was just like the day before;

Meeting Girlf ! <3

2010-01-15T15:32:00.003+08:00

Left with half an hour to the end of the class. No plans whatsoever on where to go~ I haven't seen Efaah girlf in sucha long time.. I wonder if I can meet her today. I need to get pressies for loved ones too.

..Guess I shall do both after class today. =]

OH, Sports Champ tmrw! Then to Cik Adan's place for makan2 on Sunday. WoooOoooOoo~

Gotta go. Chiaoz~!

reality dawns on me.

Update!

2010-01-12T00:07:00.002+08:00

NYP SIT OpenHouse 2010 was so-so..

Though the crowd wasn't as much as last year's, everyone who helped out throughout the whole 3 days were veryyy tired. Still, kudos to all who have helped out! (:
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Didn't have much time to complete assignments etc, rush rush.. I feel so disorganized. Never once in my life had I feel so... lost. Had to ask groupmates for help and guidance.. Idk why, but I feel really terrible. :'( -I don't want to depend on others too much. Sigh..

Another downside would be, I have to sleep much earlier and get up on time. I keep cabbing to campus, which is a BIG NO-NO. >.<" Plus, now that Lil' Bro's O Level results are out, the outcome is so that I feel I have to take on more responsibilities in time to come. Since I'm the eldest in my family.. .

On a lighter note, POA Test 2 earlier was quite easy, I think. I suspect there are a few careless mistakes though. Also, I have submitted my name for Overseas Project Attachment (FYPJ). It does help me get started in travelling around the world, so.. Why not?

..and again, thanks to groupmates, I managed to submit 2 assignments, which were due today. I feel indebted and have this immense gratitude for you guys.. :')

Gonna start chiong-ing EADPJ later part this week and next week. I can't afford to idle precious time anymore..

So bestf/girlf & boyf, don't think that I forget y'all kay! -xoxo

..so drained out.

Welcome 2010 !

2010-01-05T06:34:00.001+08:00

Hello readers! How did you guys spent your New Year's? (:

I spent the New year's in the cab with boyf. Heh. Countdown with the Cab Driver was .. Well, okay ii guess. Hehee. Mmm.. Was lucky enough to see the fireworks over Marina Bay though. It was wonderful~!

Uhmmm.... Happened to see LS and Shidah on that day too. Hehee. ;D

I wonder how many of y'all actually went out to countdown to New Year 2010? No, wait. The proper question should be, HOW DID YOU GUYS GET A CAB afterwards?

I walked from City Hall to all the way down to... opposite Liang Court? Or something along that line.. Clarke Quay there. Just hoping to flag a cab. The whole stretch of roadssssss are accompanied by people, flagging at every passing cab! Geez, walking in heels for the whole entire day doesn't help any either.. D: Waited for an whole hour, and there's no freakin' cab available..! Where are the cabs when you need 'em most? D:<

Well, went to eat ..idk what proper meal it is called at 5-ish am in the morning at some Adam's Corner. The food wasn't really that great.. As quoted from someone, "The prawn tastes ..old." =/

New Year 2010 is here, and I hope manymany good things are just waiting to happen. :D
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Well, been MIA-ing a lot from school friends during the hols. Sorry.. At least I saw y'all yesterday in school. ;)

Mmm... This week's jam-packed with E-Learning 'cos of OpenHouse.. Hafta juggle project and studies for upcoming tests throughout this week. =S

Alright, I'm off to sleep.

Happy New Year everyone! Though I'm 5 days late.. *sheepish smile*

two is better than one.

20xo

2009-12-31T04:04:00.002+08:00

Time is dwindling for sure. Project submission dates are nearing, and so are exams and events. D:

Well, on the bright side it's New Year Eve's. ..Haven't thought about New Year Resolutions yet. Have you?

Anyway, friends who do visit this little blog space of mine, do tag. Hahahaa, it'd be nice to know that this blog is actually being read some time. ...and yes, I know y'all love the tree in the previous post. HAHAHA! ;p

Have fun yeah counting down to Year 2010? ;D Mmmm'kay.. Off to bed I go.

xoxo.

Broke

2009-12-29T20:02:00.003+08:00

The solution to being broke;

If all trees are like this, poverty wouldn't have existed. Quite possibly.

....I wish.

She said.

2009-12-25T05:20:00.003+08:00

Happy eh eh eh. (:

Sorry for all the silly things I said up 'till now. I guess that would sum up to a whole load of stupid things I've said. :S

..Well, I hope all goes well later. Can't wait to see you later ! >.<"

-Mornin' all!

<3

Langkawi; X'mas

2009-12-25T02:19:00.002+08:00

Hello all, how are you guys doin'? (:

Back from Langkawi as of yesterday. It was a good short family vacation. Heh.

Spend a lot on clothes, souveneirs, bags etc. Sadly couldn't go for jet ski-ing, no thanks to the grumpy Mr Monthly. Missed out on go-kart as well to slack & rest in the hotel room.

What I did there was getting on a boat to see a cave of bats, mangrove swamp, fish farm and eagles feeding, got on the cable car (710m above sea level, mind you) and basically ate a lot. I swear I felt like a walking bloated pufferfish. Brrrr..!

Well, I miss Singapore and am ever so happy to be back here in the comforts of my own home. ;D

-I was really horrified about the condition of the hotel room on the first day. It just dampened my mood a lot. D: ...but things got better eventually. Hehee. I shall not say just how bad the hotel was. It was alright in the end, anyway.

Well, there are too many pictures to upload here, so do check out my facebook photo album if you wanna see what Langkawi's like. ;)

Last but not least, Merry Chirstmas everyone! Hohohoho..!

Now it's back to work..

Pulau Langkawi

2009-12-19T14:48:00.004+08:00

Pulau Langkawi

I'll be gone from 20th December to the 23rd December; 4 Days & 3 Nights .

Will be bringing laptop though. As for internet use, there's my handphone. Hehee. (:

Family's busy now with packing. Sigh. I want to go snorkelling but, I believe Mr Monthly would come anytime now. Bummed!

Well, Sports Champ will be taking place on the 21st December. Sorry fellow Excos, I won't be around in S'pore then.. :( -Hope the event goes well yeah! Jia You!

Alright, I'm off to pack.

Toodles!

Don't miss me too much! ;p

Ham Ham <3

2009-12-17T15:46:00.003+08:00

I want a ham-ham as a pet..! Adorably cute, tiny bitty and furry. <3

Cutesssssssssssss kan? Hahahahaa. It gives me the inspiration to create such minute decor for these furry creatures, as seen above. (:

Babe, can we have one?

Double-edged sword;

2009-12-09T00:30:00.002+08:00

Vulnerable.

What happens if the person whom you thought you knew so well, had another side to them? A side you never see before.. A side not easily comprehended.

..That's me. There's so much more to me but I just never showed it.

I keep apologising, but what the heavens can I do? What do you expect me to do instead then?

Please.. Just go.

4 Things You Cannot Recover ..

2009-12-01T01:30:00.003+08:00

The stone after the throw.

The word after it's said.

The occasion after the loss.

Time after it's gone.

..some things that just cannot be undone.

Just relax.

2009-11-28T16:47:00.002+08:00

Don't you guys find the weather lovely the past few days?

The warm sunshine rays, the windy soft breeze and just the right amount of shade by the clouds above. Perfect for swimming, fishing, flying kites or any outdoorsy thing. (:

Oh well, bummed out thanks to Mr Monthly. Brrr!

Anyho~

Yesterday was Hari Raya Haji. Basically went over to Grandma's and ate there, families fixing up a jigsaw puzzle. -It's a 1000 pieces puzzle; 4 days have passed trying to complete it!- I was busy-ing myself with cuz's NDS Lite or eating cookies. Hah.

Mmm.. What about food eh? There were lontong, nasi minyak, sambal udang (prawns), manymany kuih-muih, laksa (mama cooked it! ^^) and etc etc. Heh heh.

Sorry guys, will only be able to celebrate post-Hari Raya Haji with y'all on this Monday. Mama's gonna make kuih kaswi (sp?) and I'm gonna bring 'em to school~~ Wooots! ;D

Gonna watch The L Word season 2 now, and play the NDS later. ...I borrowed it from my cuz, in case you're wondering. :D

Cheerios!

me no likey pimples. :(

Mr Monthly kills me inside

2009-11-24T16:14:00.009+08:00

Sports Champ has been pushed back, rawr! ..To a date which may clash with my Damai Pri BBQ Gathering. :'(

On the other hand, I'M IN GREAT PAIN RIGHT NOW !! URGH..! This stinging, hurting, painful feeling hurts freakin' a lot laaaaa. I feel so weakkkk, and pathetic. :'(

It's unfair why only girls must suffer monthly! D:<
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I kinda knew that whenever I can't get my naice sleep, I'll get cranky. Especially so when I'm slipping in and out of consciousness. Sorry to those who have suffered under my crankiness. =/

Been thinking over many things too, hmm.. . Well, I'm off. (:

p/s: sorry i miss this part out in my previous post; Meeting boyf is one of the greatest points of my past week too. Heh heh.. ;)

know that you are one of the best things in my life.

Gettin' Busy

2009-11-22T02:18:00.003+08:00

It's been an awfully busy week, honestly. The only good parts were when I met up with Iqah & Efaah loves. Love you girls manymany! <3

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2 tests on Monday. POA test is of 30% weightage. OS test on the other hand is.. prifftts. I think there's not a need to elaborate on that. -.-"

School events-wise;
Sports Champs ish up and coming..! Just next saturday yawwwww! ;)

Alright, gonna work on that DMID Report for the project microsite.

p/s: Heh heh, this blog ain't dead ehhhhh. ;P

Aye, I'm off Readers! (:

it'd be nice to fish again.

It's just me and my fav series tonight.

2009-11-14T18:14:00.002+08:00

Was planning to visit the library or even the eastern shores, but...

WOOOOOOOHOOO OMG THE L WORD SEASON 1 EP 6 IS FINALLY WORKING ON MY LAPPY!

Heh, what a great timing too. Guess I'll be able to unwind anyway. Was going all hyper on poor Wee Chiat via MSN about this. Hahahahahahaa! :)

In the meantime, enjoy your Saturday night readers! ;D

Let me know.

2009-11-14T15:46:00.002+08:00

I can't read your mind

Stop and listen

It's my thoughts calling your name

Screaming out the way I feel

I wish you would do the same

I think you might be on the same border

Same line same page

I'm tired

Listening to your silence brings the water to my eyes

Though I feel better now through the cold rainy night.. (:

numb.

2009-11-14T00:36:00.003+08:00

Just.. Why ?

Tick Tock..

2009-11-12T03:42:00.002+08:00

You never know just how much time can mean to a person. Sometimes, time is everything.. I can't even imagine, the depth of emotions, the complexity of thoughts in mind, the overwhelming situation..

By just thinking of it, makes me teary.

Plus, recent situations are making me worried. I can't bear to see things go down this way when I could have actually done smth to ease the burden. Even by a little bit. This helplessness.. It's doing me no good.

In spite of all this, I must say, just seeing boyf for a while cheers me up. (:

..I shall say no more.

<33

2009-11-06T17:54:00.002+08:00

Here I am sitting, working on project reports, and I found myself smiling to myself like an idiot when your text message came in.

Quoted <3

2009-11-04T01:18:00.002+08:00

I guess I'm hooked on this series. <3 Heh heh. Curiousity kills the cat, or so they say..

Tina - She's an emotional cripple.

Bette - Emotional cripple slash narcissistic personality disorder!

Tina - When she calls you, you have to end it.

Alice - I know, it's just...

Bette - Just nothing. What are you gonna do?

Alice - Well, I was going to ask her...

Bette - No asking.

Tina - You're going to tell her. Say Gabby, I really enjoyed the time we spent together but it is obvious to me that we are in different places in our lives and we want different things from a relationship, and I respect myself too much to let you treat me this way.

Bette - It's clear to me now that you are an emotional cripple without the capacity to understand true love.

Tina - And I'm no longer willing to waste my valuable time on you.

Bette - So step off, bitch.

The funniest part is, she repeated everything to the said girl. ;)

im hooked im hooked!

Intrigued.

2009-11-01T10:10:00.003+08:00

Off to Ikea Tampines in a bit. (:

Oh, and I just watched the first 5 episodes of 'The L Word'. It's pretty intriguing and amusing to some extent.. Heh, I'm an open minded person. Don't think otherwise eh. ;]

"What are lies? There are white lies, black lies and the many shades of grey lies.. but some lies are justified. Lies told out of kindness, lies that preserve dignity and lies that spare pain."

Anyho, project have yet to get started. Will only do so tonight, I guess. D:
& as you know it, I didn't sleep last night. ;p

..Geez, each sentence ends with some kinda smiley emoticon. RAWR!

Alright, I'm off to shower. Toodles.

everyone is connected, somehow, someway.

Self-Thoughts.

2009-10-31T23:07:00.004+08:00

Idk what's wrong with me. Urgh.

Sometimes there are days when I'm not totally myself. Where I feel like disconnecting myself from this world, this fast-paced reality. Just.. switch off.

One day, it will be just me and Mother Nature, surrounded by her natural elements. Like sitting on those rocks close to the sea, listening to the waves crashing upon the shore, the wind blowing past you, playing with your hair and the sun or moon light shining down on you and seeing the clear reflection on the water's surface..

It's days like these, that I just want to be left alone.

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I need some time on my own, to think and reflect. I can't come back as fast as I would have liked. I need to pick myself up, just give me some time..

I promise I'll be back to myself sooner or later. (:

self-reflection.

simplicity .

2009-10-31T04:56:00.002+08:00

YAY!

Changed to a new skin. Got it from blogskins.com. No time to code myself, please. ._." Pretty simple, but it's nice.

& that's all that counts.

Mind's wide awake, still.

2009-10-31T03:58:00.002+08:00

Crap, I didn't even realise it's going 4am now.

Excos' Dinner at PizzaHut was.. Well, the company and food was great but the service there.. Is a whole different story.

Projects and presentations have started. Tests coming up soon too. Damnation, must I constantly think and worry this much? D:

Guess it'a a test of endurance and limitations.

to pull this off; strength.

Only once I saw the daylight otw home;

2009-10-29T02:41:00.003+08:00

"It's easier said than done."

I'm sure everyone have heard of this saying before but, has anyone really thought that there are times where it's just as difficult to say certain things too? :(

I wish I was a robot. An on and off switch would be great right now. Off to sleep and On to a whole new day. Wonderful isn't it?

If only my body mechanism works that way. I'm so.. screwed.

just shut down.

Busy Already?!

2009-10-23T23:38:00.003+08:00

..and there you have it, the first week back in school is over.

Got to see long-missed schoolmates, and enjoy the good food. Heh heh. If you'd ask me if there are any differences after the long hols, I can say that there really isn't much of a difference. Not that I miss school or anything, no. I've been heading back pretty often during the hols anyway. :}
The only bummer is almost all of my modules have projects. Okay, let me state the numbers.. Out of the 6 modules I have this semester, 5 of them have projects. Better yet, the study plans are pretty rushed. From 4 weeks' amount of work is shortened to 2-3 weeks'. Double bumm!

Plus commitment as an Exco, I'll definitely be in a pinch for time. ...but I shall persevere, aja aja fighting! ;D

Oh yes, Camp Eagle is a Leadership Training Camp for the Year 1's at SIT NYP. Juniors, if you wanna be OGLs etc, do sign up for it! ;)
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ALRIGHT, Cousin's getting married tmrw. The whole family's going out in WHITE. Woooots! Damn pimple, disappear faster please. D:

..and and I'm so nice to wrap Lil' Bro's blistered foot in a nice bandage. ^.^

Mama's mummy wrap on his foot before that was just.. LOL!

Enjoy the weekend and youngsters, good luck for your exams. :)

-GOODNIGHT LOVELIES! <3

i want.. i want.. food.

Sugar Sugar <3

2009-10-23T22:23:00.008+08:00

"Shut your eyes and feel the chemicals collide.

You and I tonight, you're the sugar in my high."

♥♥♥

Miss My Beauties ♥

2009-10-16T05:27:00.002+08:00

Sitting here, wide awake at this unearthly hour..

I'd just like to say I miss my girlf super duper muchie, whom I haven't seen in such a longgggggg time !

Efaah baby, let's meet up soon ! <3

Going off to school later.
Publication Dept meeting up and starting on tasks.
Sem 2's timetable ain't so bad, it's pretty good I'd say.
No Monday blues for sure, heh.

-Anyone accompanying me to Ikea this weekend? ;D

..& I believe, everyone is beautiful deep down inside ♥

Exhausting.

2009-10-11T23:21:00.002+08:00

It's been a tiring week.

Been going back and forth from school for Exco meetings and what not~

Well, had our Annual General Meeting (AGM) 2009 yesterday. It's an event where (senior) excos step down and the new excos step up.

Thank You seniors for guiding us to where we are now today. Without all of you, my stay in SIT NYP would not have been as vibrant and exciting as it is now. Not only that, the life lessons and skills I learned throughout the whole experience, and values all of you have imparted us with, will never be forgotten and always remembered. :}
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Afterwards, went to Town with Ls, Terry, Tiffany, Guo Wei, Suwanno and Qing Guo. Leon joined us for a short while later before going off to work.

First time eating at Ramen Ten, and all of them belanja me. Thank you very very much guys..! I feel so.. touched, grateful and a lil' sad at the same time. :'(

As for today, went to JB, M'sia to visit my uncle & aunt for Hari Raya visiting. :) Makan siput sedut, wooo. Sedappp. HAHAHA! Uhm, siput sedut means sucking snails? ...I meant, one has to suck the snail to eat it. Aiyoh! Sounds wrong no matter how I'm going to explain it. ._.

Anyho~

Will be busy with VoiceOut 09/10 next. Rehearsal tmrw and the actual event is on Tuesday itself.

Dearest friends, if you wanna come to the event, please do. Hehs. -I'll be the emcee. ;)

Okayyy, there are sooooo manyyy stuffs to do..!
Gotta get started on planning, NOW .

..What else? Bye ah.

Craving for Oreo McFlurry lahh.

Duty Calls.

2009-10-07T03:33:00.007+08:00

they don't know, they won't understand.. ♥

Rush, Rushed, Rushing.
Busy from today 'till next Tuesday. Sigh. :(

-Happy 18th Birthday LS .. !!

there's gotta be more to life.. .

Manymany words.

2009-10-05T01:10:00.007+08:00

..and it's Monday again.

To all friends studying in Republic Poly, try not to have any blues ey..? A brand new start to another whole new term. Maybe I'll drop by if I have the time, gotta love the cookies 'n' cream blended drink there. Hehee. ;D
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Saturday
Left Singapore for about half a day to visit relatives in JB, M'sia. Heh heh, gotta admit that the scenery change and the atmosphere of a kampong-feel is refreshing once in a while. Didn't visit much houses, only 2 actually but the food was great. Hahaha, I didn't even know Kuih Pao/Bao Kelapa (coconut) actually exists until I came across 1 there.

Surprisingly, no traffic jam whatsoever, though we had to be spot-checked throughly. Again, I'm surprised that I'm let off with 3 err.. bubblegum tubes/packets, whatever.. O.O" I thought it'll be confiscated or something. Mmm.. I wonder, is there a difference with bubblegum and chewing gum? =/

Sunday
Got up at around noon, and went to Bedok with Lil' Bro to get our shoes. After which, got on the MRT to Woodlands. Hmm, some sort of gathering/celebration (idk how to say it lah, but for us malay peeps, it's majlis doa selamat etc) at my uncle's place. Pretty bored since most cousins weren't there yet. To sum it up, I only ate a lot and watched TV.

Pssttt... Happy belated 21st Birthday Abang..! All the best in NS ehhhh. Hahhah.
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I realised that I haven't been able to catch up/update and talk or meet up with lotsa important people. Like my current schoolmates, ex-schoolmates, beloved cousins, pretty girlf, treasured ♥ and even my very own family members. (on certain matters..) :(

Even if we see one another or anything, there just isn't a chance to chat. Hmmph. Circumstances as they are ey..?

..Hopefully I'll have some time to do so before the hols officially end. (:
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Hmm.. On a random note, I feel like changing my blog skin. -.-" If only it's as easy and fast as scrapbooking, I would have done so a long long time ago. Curious as to what scrapbooking I did..? Look on below.. ;D

*Apologies in advance and no offence/harm intended towards the people in the pictures. Somewhat copyright goes to me~ HAHA!*

Hmm~ Mostly made on 18th Birthdays. Hee~ *winks*

I'm gonna be pretty busy at the end of this week and the start of next week with school events. Anything just holler aite. ;)

Takkaire fellow readers, have a splendid week ahead aye! =]

Sometimes I think a little silly, but that's pretty normal for most girls.

Love Calls

2009-10-02T07:08:00.006+08:00

..and in 22 minutes, I will be giving someone a wake up call. Hahaa! =3

Sorry for the lack of updates, been busy having fun out with dearest friends. Lovelove. During the past few days I had.. In no particular order of days or timing;

`Watched the movie, Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs in 3D.

`Dinner at Long John Silver's with ♥.

`Raya outing with sec schmates.

`Gone to school for Exco meeting.

Yepyep.

Oh damn, I think I'm having a pimple breakout. Brrr.. Well, stayed home ytd and most likely today too. Gotta iron those huge pile of clothes of mine..! D:

Been playing Theme Hospital the whole morning. Heh heh, I've yet to complete the whole game since I first started playing it. -which amounts to a few years- Determined to complete the game. Hoohah!

Mmm..

Just being random, I loveeeeee eating mooncakes. Especially the red bean paste ones! So colourful and naice. ;D Hahaa, girlf said it tastes just like kuih pao/bao, only ..cold. Hehee!

-Right. Can't think of anything else to say, so I shall end off here. Good Morning people! It's Friday today, right before the start of weekends. Gonna make that call now~

"When I touch your body

I feel I'm loosing control

Cuz you can't deny

You've blown my mind

When I see you baby

I just don't wanna let go"

sweet coincidentals.

Sunndayyy!

2009-09-27T15:42:00.003+08:00

I think I look like an ah lian here; no offence intended though.

My face so tembam laaa..!

Just transferred some pikchas from me phone to lappy. Had forgotten that there were a few raya photos in there. Well, will upload 'em to FaceBook some other time soon.

Going out later to catch the movie, Inglourious Basterds. Heh, I think this is my first time watching a M18 show. Can't really remember any other times, hmm...

Aite, it's going 4pm. I better get a move on.

Ciaos babes and hunks. ;}

i'm going out in "rat" -pssttt.. I meant red actually.

Jalan Raya Lagi~

2009-09-26T16:11:00.006+08:00

Just so you know, I have rebonded my hair again. Heh heh, manymany people haven't seen me for a long time so I posted up some pikchas. ^^

Don't really have Hari Raya pikchas with me. You can find some of 'em at FaceBook though. Well, gonna go off to some relative's places today.

Just a personal thought, I would like to think that I don't have as much free time as I would have liked. With assigned positions, comes big responsibilities.. Well, I guess I'll have to adapt. Good thing that I have time management, only... Can I follow through?

Like the saying goes, nothing's impossible. There's always time for everything. Even for you and me, no matter how busy we may be. It's all up to one's willingness, I presume. :}

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Just a quick update on Exco matter;

..I got the Honorary Secretary Position of the Exco Core Team. -I have no comments, hahaa.

CONGRATULATIONS to those who were made Exco Core Team members..!

I believe that we all can work really well with one another and hopefully bring SIT Club to the next level. All the best to all of us~!

To those who didn't get their desird positions, your presence is still as important in the team.. :) -Don't give up just yet.

Aite I'm off, byebye for now.

Kuih muih~

<3

2009-09-25T03:09:00.000+08:00

We are in each others arms

Just like a movie scene

Cause as we're leaning in

The light decides to turn green

Me and you together

This is getting better

Just butterflies won't do

I don't want just red lights

I want more of these nights

Baby I love you

"Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend." -03 Bonnie & Clyde

Results are OUT !

2009-09-23T12:04:00.005+08:00

Hmm.. This (above) is what greeted my eyes at 8.06am. Well, SMS form though.

Dear friends, I hope all of your results are fine if not great.. If it didn't meet your expectations this time round, there's always a next time.. Continue to put in those efforts, right from the start. It pays off later, really. :}

"Whatever I have tried to do in life, I have tried with all my heart to do it well; whatever I have devoted myself to, I have devoted myself completely; in great aims and in small I have always thoroughly been in earnest." - Charles Dickens

I believe in second chances, and even a third.

Nervous.

2009-09-23T03:14:00.001+08:00

Oh crap, academic results will be out at 8am today..

Fan-freaking-tastic.

Hari Raya !!

2009-09-20T04:06:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN !

Ampunkan lah Ili ni kalau ada tersilap kata ataupun terbuat apa2 kesilapan.. Ili tak sengaje. Maaf kan lah ye..? Hehee.

Kawan-kawan, makan lah sepuas hati nanti eh, kalau ada masa, turun lah ke rumah Ili. Hahaha! Call dulu tau! Hahaa!

Okay laaa. Tak sabar ni nak pergi rumah nenek nanti.. Makan longtong, ketupat (sama kan tu?), sambal udang, sotong, serunding, fuuyooooh! Hahahahaa. Adalah orang tu kata, "Makan aje kerja Ili." ;)

Hmm.. Post lah gmbr2 Raya pat blog korg smue. Boleh lah Ili tgk baju raya, make-up, hairstyle kwn2 yg cantik2. Heh heh. Mesti bergaya kan? (:

Selamat menyambut Hari Raya. Yg lelaki2, tkmu lupa pergi masjid sembahyang! Hahahaha! Byeee!

p/s: Tk biase seyh blog dlm bahasa melayu. Dah lah Malay C6, minta ampun. Hahaha.

feeling2 nak main bunga api laaa~